my lover’s gone.
Monday, May 12th, 2008
Lover has left for a business-like trip a few towns away from here. He’ll just be gone over night & will return Tuesday evening, but I am already dreading staying here alone, sleeping in that big bed all by myself. I am already missing him. We have never spent a night alone since we’ve lived here, which is days away from being a year, matter of fact. I can tell that these next 2 days will be spent with the television on for comfort & I’ll be texting Lover profusely, bothering him & telling him how much I miss & love him.
As pathetic as this time will be for me, I am going to make it a point to spend some much needed “me” time, thinking about how my life is going, (fear is still popping up now & again, keeping me from doing the things I want) pleasuring myself at the thought of my husband, & maybe… do a little browsing around the city. Unfortunately, there are no good movies playing now — in my opinion — or else I would indulge in a few matinees.
More than likely, a lot of writing will be done here; if only to kill time & abandon my lonely thoughts somewhere.
- Ev'Yan || apricot tea.
- This was my old diary, which now houses older entries I've done in the past. My new blog can be found here: [http://apricot-tea.com]